Just a little reminder

[crazywade]

Hey Everyone i just wanted to share a reminder with you all. It's not meant to make you feel bad for me or to offend anyone it's just a reminder, although from what iv'e seen here, you guys probably don't need it. but it can't hurt. take a look,

thanks, Sean

http://crazywadelures.com/mycustompage0009.htm

[siebler_custom_baits]

thank you for taking the time to remind everybody about the importance of family. I am trully sorry about your parents and son. i have lost much family and friends to cancer and other items including both my fathers parents and my sister whom all had cancer.

[Wire bender]

Sean, thank you for sharing and may God bless you. Phil

[funny farm]

Thats very sad . My first daughter was born early and they couldnt save her , she was alive for 1 hour and a half hours or so , I think and hour 20 minutes . I was there luckily when she was born , she was born and was sucking her thumb , that is a memory that still wakes me up from a dead sleep think I left her some where or forgot her . Its been a little over 6 years and shes still in my head everyday . My dad pased away in 2001 at age 60 from the diabetes and had been sick for 35 years from it , they told him he had a 50/50 chance of living 2 more years , he said oh really and ate and did what he wanted , he would go to the hosptiol and they would crame him full of lasics and off to europe or on a cruise to alsaka , he did a cruise to panama . He went in after my mom caleed the ambluance and they lost him , but had an experamental heart difibulator like the vice president had revived him and told us about it . He had been recessetated from being dead many many times , I would get a call at work from my mom i need to come to the hospitol , pull up run up to the heart section and she or my sister would be there with a the look and just say , well he made it again . He out lived the doctors by 15 years or so . He had no and I mean zero feeling in his legs from the mid upper leg down , and lost part of his foot . He still was walking around ,his doctor of many years could explain to use , not why he was sick , but could explain how he was still alive , all his major organs were at like 10-20 percent of there working potential . After he got the difibulator put in he said he hadnt felt that good in 20 something years , and my mom said he was the man she married again , he was a bit grump with his blood sugar and when his pressure went up in the 300's ? 400's ? whats the most blood presure can be and not kill you ? he went to the doctors office and they couldnt read his it was off there scale . They were a bit nerveous , I cant remember the numbers but when I was working in a medical building I told one of the nurses what his numbers were and she didnt belive me and said he would have died , I kinda gave her a smile-smirk and said ypu thats what his doctors say also . He was always on 20 different medications . Never once did he ever complain or admit to hurting . We all got a chance to talk to him as he appologized for being"a mite hard" to handle at times and we all got to say what we had to . He was sitting on the edge of his bed watching one of his shows , my sister was at my parents stealing makeup from my mom or somthing anyway her and dad were joking around and she said she would be right back down going to get a pair of shoes , when she came down 2 minutes later he was laying back on the bed , he had passed away . His defibulator is know for when some one dies it can keep going off for hours they said like 2 and half , and no one can get near the body or they will get knock on there butt , you have to watch the person get shock severley for a long time , and its powerfull enough to move a body , so you can imagine how unpleasent that would be added on top . But his didnt go off luckily his entire body just shut down systamaticly cause it new it was time to . He was a tough bird and is hopefuly teaching my daugter how to fish , they will need the practice for when I get there , But first I have alot to say to both of them I never got to say . Even if my dad was hard to get along with not me so much I took off out of there house right when I turned 18 but my sister and mom took care of him and my grandma at the same time , they were both in critcal care at the same hospitol for a week or so . I never did mange to get him out on the boat one last time , but he knew my wife and I went out alot and he liked planning and buying the stuff for the trips . My wife had both her grandmas pass away this year . Her father is pulling the same stuff as my dad , hiding doctors visits , not eating right when no one is watching , My wife reminded her father of mine and also her mom , my dad was a one in a million case , none of his doctors could explain how hie body could even be resecetated , it was so worn out , the diabetes he was fighting for 40 years was tearing him up . So her father kinda got a scare and is slowly making better desicions , but not to fast as that would look like someone elses suggestion . My mom and I were talking a day or so ago and I never really relized how hard and painfull it was living with my dad , I am not going to say she hated him but it was definetly close , no matter what any one said to him he never did what the doctors said , always the opposite . and she was telling me what a drain it was year after year to see him kill himself . He was an honest 4 pack a day smoker , benson and hedges , He would light one in the morning and not need another light as he would light them off the last one , and he had conjustive heart failure , nad nemerous other problems including bad asthma . He would puff the ciggarette and the puff his inhaler for years and years , thats something my mom told me yestarday , the phramacist would just about scream at her for letting him do that , he went though an inhaler a day or more , and four packs of smokes , then one day on his way to work he went to light up while driving and siad ahh thats stupid , called my mom and said I just quit smoking hung up and never picked one up again , not one . He had that pack of benson and hedges in his console of his car for I guess like 6 or more years , it was opened but always had the same amount in it . But my wife and I had a baby girl this febraruy 19th , had to say date so I wont forget , like I would , My wife was in the hospitol for a little over a month with her feet above her head , she made it as long as she could , and no one could have done a better job , I wasnt there for her enough and have to live with that , baby Kaitlynn wanted to stay breach and on the left side of my wife , she hs only a few marks on the right side and a bunch on the left , the baby was stubborn before she was hatched . My wife called me freaking out crying yelling and i coulnd undersand her , I finaly got it out of her they were doing an emergancy sea section (nice spelling huh ? ) So i said ok fine relax , and then I relized what she just said said bye and went to the er as soon as posible . They had already started , and if you have ever seen a sea section before they aint gentle ok . They were pulling yanking throwing organs out of her , then I saw the doctor tugging on a little pair of legs , I spoke uo and said : what are try to do , start a lawn mower ? " I was told to be in silence so the doctors could concintrate , well the adranaline is flowing and I get wound up sometimes , and I kept making cute little sound effects , and kept getting warnings , my wife was laughing at me and cry cause she was happy neveous and on alot of dope (the legal kind) , well just as they got the little baby out that looked like at little new bird the ran past us so we could get a glance but at that age everymili second counts , well I guess the doctor was getting my wife back together and I am guessing the water broke or something did and just out of reflex I yelled "GUSSSSSSSSSHHHHH" very load , loud enogh everybody jumped a few inches except my wife she was still talking to the pillow or whom ever , so the anistiologist came over and said Mr Jones lets go see how your daughter is doing , so i was like cool . Yeah , I got a 45 minute time out in a back patient room that was vacent . He new we could see the baby for a while but was just putting me on time out cause I was bad . GUUUUSH it was funnt , hey the nurses enjoyed my comments , and sound effects . The first time we saw out baby she was only 3 pounds and had ivs stuck in her neck her umbilical cord had like 2 needles in it , =her little feet had ivs and monitor straps , she had the wear a little bubble thing , it was such a wierd moment she didnt look like a baby she looked like and HRGieger alien , she was very small and scraggly , but cute to a parent , yeah parents I was looking back at some of her younger pictures comared to now , wow not as cute , umm by far . Parents will understand that , non parents will say how could you say that , well she was always beautiful but as far as cute , not so much , well kinda I guess. But no matter what , little baby Kaitlynn is the most beautiful thing in the world , My wife did such a great job with her while she was pregnant and after as well . After being born in two weeks she started acting up , she flipped herself over a couple times so they had to wrap a towel around here and keep her snug , then she started to wiggle down the the bottom of the isolet (the baby oven things) The nurse proped her a different way and then her new trick was to pull her ivs and feeding tube out whe nshe fancied . They finally had to put little restraints on her . Oh she was born with a full head of bright red hair . They lost her one night but thanks every thing in this world the nurses got to her and gave her cpr , they saved our baby , she had 0 signs and was blue , very blue . I have never felt so many emotions like that , all I could think was I cant loose another . It was a trying few days . Slowly she statrted getting pulled off of stuff , lines ivs , tubes started disappearing . The the big day was to see if she would eat through a bottle , she didnt like it , she is a lazy baby just like her mother (just kidding if you read this) and prefered it through a tube , she was 10 weeks early so shes thinks shes still in her mommys belly so she slept all day and all night for a while . I was so scared to hold her it took me a while , and no one understood why , but I was just scared of this new little thing , one of the nurses called my name and i was sitiing down I turned to look and she just like softly tossed my baby into my lap , I cant stop holding her now , her mom gets mad cause I am a baby hog . My wife and I are split up and have been doing the talking thing and are actualy getting along better than we have in a long time , we might not or might get back together but we agree on issues with the baby and thats is what we both agree is number one . Kaitlynn was in the hospitol for 2 months and finally got to go home with her mom , my wife moved back into her parents basement , It was so nice to see me wife getting brought out of the hosptiol with her new baby in her arms , she just glowed proud and as well should be , something had wanted since our last baby died . The baby was on the monitor somtimes they can be on there for a year or better , but as of monday they took her off of it so shes a healthly little stubborn Red head . Me and my wife thanks who ever we have to for her to be so healty , being born at 29 weeks , I told my wife if she came have a baby at 5-6 months we could have 2 a year !! I told her that on the phone , she might of hit me . She cant have anymore kids , which is too bad because our daughter is beautiful and healty , even if we didnt get back together she might find somone else . It would be a very trouble and sugery filled pregnacy starting on 99 percent bedrest , go to the bathroom to potty and one shower a week the rest of the time feet above the head . A little bit of streess . So the baby is at 10 pounds off the monitor , so I can finally take her by myself to cruise the malls , with the monitor 2 people had to be with the baby while driving incase it goes off you dont wreck the car trying to check on her . So I just hope I remember to spend all my time devoted to my little shop helper , i mean little girl , She is starting to curl her lip and snarl whe nshe gets fussy like I do . Me , my wife , both familys were so hoping that she wouldnt get my brain , but I think she might have . Big trouble. .She is going to stay with me during the days and my wife will work and then since I am doing this lure type stuff full time I can do it at night . Wife will have baby on weekends so I can go to trade shows and to Jerrys to steal his Ideas . So if you are in VA come by and check out my shop when I get it opened hopefully soon , and watch out for the little red head with a snarl , shes hard to put down , I hate having to leave her when I see her . I have only spent the night with the baby in the room once when her parents were out of town (to the guys-hell yeah I sleep alone and all night , to my hunney - Ummm I want to be there for you in the night to help out , it makes me bond with you 2)

And I am sure you parents know what happend when those light went off , yeah thats right , I said honney , whats she doing , is she ok , should i hold her , is that a cry , was that you or did the baby fill her diaper , why does she move so much , when does she fall asleep , are you in the mood ? never mind babys watching , will nyquill put her to sleep like it does you ? Why does she smell so bad ? any way I had my hand in her bassanet the whole night elbowing lisa asking her to check the baby , she would wake up for a second laugh at me and go back to sleep . Wow , I got home and had to take a power nap , twice . Since my dad died I have seen and heard kids say stuff to there dads when I am out at the mail , I have looked at the kids being teenages or what ever and I have said things like , You will wish you never said that one day , or enjoy while you still can . I have no problems talking to people I dont know but For some reason when I hear a kid or teenager bad mouthing there parents all I can think of are the things I said to my dad that after he died I remembered I said , and of course wish I never had , but I was fortunate enough to have said what we had to . A few years ago my friends dad was killed in a car accedent , they just happened to be in a small ongoing bickering match when he died . he never got to appologize or tell him he loved him . That still haunts him every day . And some will tell you it gets easier as time goes on is what the hospital told me about my first daughter , and I could tell when she passed noone realy thinks about the father, and that's was hard, everyone would say poor mother, and I would be like yeah its horrible, and family would be like she wanted that baby so bad. Hummm . It was tough . Well did you read this far or just skip to the last paragraph. My dad died July 13 , Yep the joker waited till Friday the 13th , My mom and I argued constantly, but since my dad died I just let her say what she has to and keep my "intellectual" thought to myself . She has changed alot , its tough being with someone that long and then not , but he was so sick and not a real treat to be around most of the time she kind of enjoys the silence of her house , and no funny farm tackle is not permitted in her basement . I tried , Anyway guess I just got the feelings thing and had to type . My wife takes care of litle Kaitlynn and does such an awesome job , we are both so blessed to have such a perfect little girl . Shes my spawn , my wife likes it when I say that . I am hard to live with so its a wonder she stayed that long . Not that I am wierd , I am straight as an arrow . I stay alone and talk to my tools and the dog , so every once in a while I get a bit chatty . I was going to proof read and run spell check but its along letter and you can make fun of me if you want

[deadlystreamer]

you can make fun of me if you want

You must be kidding Toby, I can't say I know how you feel because I don't. But my heart goes out to you and you're Family. You have certainly been through more then your share of hardships. They say time heals all wounds. How much time we ask.. Personally I'm glad you have us to vent too. A person needs to talk to someone. Our prayers are with you Toby.

[Wire bender]

My friend, may God hold you close. He loves you. Phil

[Skeeter]

I said a prayer for the both of you and your families. The loss of people that we love can never be an easy thing. I guess death has taken someone from us all at one time or another. The only thing that I know to do is pray for peace for all concerned.

God Bless,

Jeff